Maybe I Know Why I’m Always Isolated or in Solitude

Just from all the environments I have encountered, I would find myself sixty or fifty percent chance ended up isolating myself. Either it’s me exclude myself from others, which is a lesser case, or people in the environment isolate me.

In many cases I can not figure out why and how so people isolate me for nothing, and it’s something that I’m always wondering the answers.

But I can tell how I isolated myself from the others though, it’s a self-protection measure, and well I have to admit that I see people’s inner sides very quickly. I can understand the motives and the behaviors from what a person does, I get the things that are inside their personalities. ...READ MORE

About Chinese

Chinese is a very powerful and simply to use language compared to English and european languages system. Every new word doesn’t require the full understanding of each character and you can guess the meaning of the word even without context, it’s what English can’t do.

Recently I’ve read a post about the effort rules that apply in English language.

How many words do I need to know? The 95/5 rule in language learning ...READ MORE

Politics

Politics are actually the contending for resources, the ultimate purpose is resources.

政治,其最终目的就是资源。资源的多少,所在,决定了政治的不同立场。/ The amount of resources decides the contrastive political perspectives.

What the politicians want is more than their representations, when things comes to politics I always wondering why would a man care about his fellow citizens and the voters to elect. ...READ MORE

The Chinese Restaurants in Russia

There’s something alike china in Russia, here in St Petersburg. The walking of people and the massiveness of crowd engaging outside of the Moscow Railway Station.

I always feel an impulse killing me when I’m alone, it’s a periodic thing, it’ll strike time by time, as long as I got my sight interlaced with others. The fear of being stared is something I can’t control, till now I still can’t understand why people are staring at me or either just watching me when i’m passed by. ...READ MORE

About Socilize

I guess the most unpredictable thing about human many be each other can’t read their minds, we’re born to be dwelling in our own world.

It’s strange, I can never understand what those other people thinking in their minds, it’s so hard to get what their worlds are like.

Socializing requires minds-reading ability, you can’t literally read minds, but you can react after reactions, follow other people’s leads and strike when is needed. I think some people are doing swell in this, personally, I can do this but it’s tiresome for me to keep doing it along. I long for the ability to read minds, the ability to understand others’ hearts saying, what they want, what they are thinking, what they concern, what their secrets are… It’s thrilling to read minds, figuratively. ...READ MORE

About Family

You know, when we are talking about family. We are like talking about all the messy stuff out there in a hole. But when I look back at my family, and the history of it, what consists of this family, the three of us, my father, my mother and me, but the point is, my parents, they’re just some really plain to dirt and regular petty citizens in this society.

I tried to avoid my parents as far as possible. In my age, this is just not a regular thing to do to live with my parents. ...READ MORE

About Death

Humans are wired to be afraid of death. It’s an instinct of the very raw subconsciousness.

I once asked my grandma whether she was afraid of death, she said she was about to die and she was not that scared of death itself. She’s already 76 years old, she’s old. She’s played her role enough and been inside worker class for her entire life.

I got the feeling that most people think that old people are not afraid of death, because they’re old enough to die. But the idea is wrong, they are, afraid to death, the death itself. ...READ MORE