Maybe I Know Why I’m Always Isolated or in Solitude

Just from all the environments I have encountered, I would find myself sixty or fifty percent chance ended up isolating myself. Either it’s me exclude myself from others, which is a lesser case, or people in the environment isolate me.

In many cases I can not figure out why and how so people isolate me for nothing, and it’s something that I’m always wondering the answers.

But I can tell how I isolated myself from the others though, it’s a self-protection measure, and well I have to admit that I see people’s inner sides very quickly. I can understand the motives and the behaviors from what a person does, I get the things that are inside their personalities. ...READ MORE

Politics

Politics are actually the contending for resources, the ultimate purpose is resources.

政治,其最终目的就是资源。资源的多少,所在,决定了政治的不同立场。/ The amount of resources decides the contrastive political perspectives.

What the politicians want is more than their representations, when things comes to politics I always wondering why would a man care about his fellow citizens and the voters to elect. ...READ MORE

About Family

You know, when we are talking about family. We are like talking about all the messy stuff out there in a hole. But when I look back at my family, and the history of it, what consists of this family, the three of us, my father, my mother and me, but the point is, my parents, they’re just some really plain to dirt and regular petty citizens in this society.

I tried to avoid my parents as far as possible. In my age, this is just not a regular thing to do to live with my parents. ...READ MORE

About Death

Humans are wired to be afraid of death. It’s an instinct of the very raw subconsciousness.

I once asked my grandma whether she was afraid of death, she said she was about to die and she was not that scared of death itself. She’s already 76 years old, she’s old. She’s played her role enough and been inside worker class for her entire life.

I got the feeling that most people think that old people are not afraid of death, because they’re old enough to die. But the idea is wrong, they are, afraid to death, the death itself. ...READ MORE

Mind Prison

Horrible as it is, we live in a heavily media/information control country. It’s like cages, endless space within but with completely surrounded bars. I was horrified at once when I come to realize that what we are actually facing and against.

I was doing some researches bout how to enhance the VPN of mine for a better experience online, but after the readings, or should I say, after the horrific facts that present to us from the past to the present, and maybe lasting forever to the future. I felt astonished, horrified, suffocating. The truth is, we can’t fight against them, they are too strong too powerful to us, here we don’t even make a force. The control of government has already been professional and specialized, they restrain their own countrymen at their will. The battle had and has already risen to a level where even experts can’t efficiently handle and tackle the situation of the GFW filtering. They are well funded and very capable, it’s difficult as well as ordinary people trying to get outside. Their deeds are ugly, very ugly, from any point of views. It’s devious doings. ...READ MORE